Yesterday I wrote about the year that is to come. This brand new, blank slate that we have in front of us is an opportunity to write a fresh story.
My word for this year is brave. Be brave. There are so many things that I want in my life that I am too afraid to do. Fear is what stops me from doing something 99% of the time. Many times I feel confident in a decision I am making, but then a little voice inside of me will start to come out and tell me that I will fail or that I'm not making the right choices. The little voice wants to hold me back and make me second guess myself and my talents. I'm deciding that 2015 is the year that I shut the door on my fear and focus on what can come out of being brave.
// 2015 Goals //
Get up by 9:00// I have such a struggle with this one. I have never been good at waking up early, even in high school, but I have made it work in college for my 8 ams (they're horrible, I know). But on the days I know I don't have class or any commitments, I have such a hard time getting up, even when I set alarms. The days when I do sleep in and wake up at 10:30 or even 12:30 (that happened earlier this week....) I feel like my day is gone and I really hate that feeling. My goal for January is to get up everyday by 9:00, whether I have class or not, in order to be productive and live my days to the fullest.
Work out 3xs a week// I know, how cliché. Instead of simply saying "I want to lose weight" or "I want to get in shape" I have decided to be specific on this and commit to working out 3xs a week. This gives me the flexibility to work out when and where I want. Right now I workout very sporadically, there's no real method to my madness, so this way I have a plan that can help me keep track of what I'm doing and not set me up for failure.
Staying organized// If you've ever met me in real life you know I am far from being organized. My room is typically a mess, I am always running late to everything, and I forget assignments/events so much it's unreal. This year (hopefully with the help of my parents, teachers, and friends) I am committing to staying organized. I want to write out my entire semester in my planner in the first week of class, I want to set aside time each day to devote to my school work, and to be truthful with myself each month on how good (or bad) I've kept up with everything.
Eat at home// I almost always have the intention of eating my meals at home, but there are so many days that by the time I am done with classes or work, I am too tired to cook and end up picking something up on the way home. Not only is this unhealthy, it is so expensive. And let's be real, I'm college student poor. In order to make this goal attainable I am going to start by letting myself eat out twice a week; this way I am giving myself room to hang out with friends or whatever without feeling restricted.
Improve on my photography skills// I got my camera last year as a Christmas present and have spent the past year slowly learning the basics of it all. I have to say my pictures have improved tremendously...I was looking at one of the first recipe shoots I did and all I can say is yikes! This Christmas, I got a new lens and downloaded a couple of beginners workshops to learn all the ins and outs of a DSLR camera. I want to commit to spending one weekend a month to listening to the tutorials as well as practicing on people, scenery, etc.
Share my story// Now this might not make sense to most of my readers because, well I haven't shared my story yet. I have had different heart problems and conditions throughout my life that have changed me and shaped me into who I am today. I have been wanting to write about this for awhile now but something (hint, hint, fear) has been holding me back. This year I am committing to face my fears and to be brave and share my story with you all.
Get involved with AHA// This goes hand in hand with what I said above. Like I mentioned, I have had heart problems/defects all of my life but I am just now getting to the age to where I can truly understand the severity of it all and how it does and will affect my day to day life for the rest of my life. I have decided to take that extra step and get involved with the American Heart Association (and possibly a few other heart disease organizations) to help bring awareness to the number one leading cause of death in the United States, heart disease.
Continue to write// I love writing and I always have, but it is so easy to get discouraged when writing. There are many times when I get writer's block or simply feel like my work sucks and isn't worth spending my time doing. Writing is truly one of my biggest passions, it gives me so much joy and pride when I read something I've written and think "wow that's pretty dang good". This coming year I am committing to writing. No matter what I write or how terribly it sucks, I want to be brave and confident in my writing.
Show kindness// In general, I think I am pretty kind-natured. I really do care about others and want everyone to feel loved and included, but I don't go out of my way to make sure that happens. Sure, I might smile at the new girl in my class but I have never been the person to go sit down and talk to her. I want to push myself out of my comfort zone and reach out to people I would have never done before. I am committing to paying for the person's drink behind me, volunteering because I want to and not because I have to, and giving back to the less fortunate with my time and my money.
Strengthen my personal relationship with God// As I have written throughout my blog, 2014 was a major turning point for my faith. My faith started to strengthen October of my freshman year in college (super random and specific, I know) but it was really kicked into high gear this past January. I will be the first to admit that I really struggle with God and religion, meaning the closer I became to the Lord, the more I felt pressured to be perfect and instead of focusing on my personal relationship, I began focusing on the do's and don'ts of everything. Going into 2015, I am committing to focusing on my personal relationship with God first and everything else second. I would rather know my Creator and have a one-on-one relationship with Him as opposed to just being a rule follower.
Read// Personally, I think reading rocks. I love, love, love to read! But I will admit, lately I have been somewhat of a book serial killer, meaning, I have started a book, read a few chapters and never picked it up again. I want to end the mass murdering of books (too far?) and give them a little love by actually finishing them. So, if you have any good titles you'd recommend help a girl out and leave them below!
I am so incredibly excited for this new year and all the adventures that I know will come out of it by kicking fear goodbye and being brave! Share with me some of your goals you have for 2015!